Wednesday, 2 September 2015

New beginnings

Hello, and welcome to September. Ever since my oldest son, who is now approaching 45 years old, started school, September has been the start of the year for me, and this year is no different.

2015 has, thus far, been one of the most difficult years I've had to face for a very long time. Several things, outside of my control but inside my sphere of activity, have happened which I don't wish to go into, but which have caused me a deal of pain and anguish and soul-searching. I have, since the middle of July, withdrawn myself from social activity of any sort and spent a lot of time asking "why?". Since the beginning of August I've also been in some physical discomfort due to what I was told by the surgery nurse was a pulled muscle. However, yesterday, while in a great deal of agony, I saw a doctor, who diagnosed arthritis in my hip, and initially prescribed painkillers and physio-therapy. Early this morning, two hours before it was time to get up, I took my first dose of the strong painkillers, and by the time I got out of bed I found that, although I could still feel a slight niggle, I was pain free, both physically, and more importantly, mentally. A lot of fog and uncertainty has cleared, and now I feel ready to move back into the outside world and re-engage.

So, to all of my friends, both real and virtual, who have been quietly supportive of me during my reclusion, I would like to say a big thank you, and to reassure you that over the next few weeks I'll be re-establishing contact. I don't intend to spend the rest of my life on painkillers, so I'll be making some significant lifestyle changes in order to ameleorate the effects of the arthritis, the main two being exercises to increase suppleness and dietary strictness with regards to my sugar intake (reduce) and omega 3 intake (increase). For the first few months of the year I had successfully shed 8 kilos of excess baggage, and if I am able to release another 5 kilos I'll be inside my target healthy weight range.

There is really nothing I can do to change the family circumstances which caused the initial and secondary hurts, except to accept things as they now are, continue to love and support all those family members who need it, and rebuild my own life accordingly.

Happy New Beginnings.

5 comments:

Tracy said...

Hi Joy, I'm sorry to hear that it has been a tough year for you, I hope that this September is the start of many new beginnings and the emotional hurts become a little less painful. As for the physical hurts it sounds like you have a good plan in place, as you know Paul has arthritis so if you any questions just ask and I'm sure he will do his best to help x sending you lots of love xx

Eileen T said...

Sorry to hear about the arthritis, that's not good. I hope your proposed lifestyle changes make the difference that you need. Good luck with the weight loss - I need to push on with that but for some reason find it more difficult when the cooler weather starts.

Hope to hear from you soon. xx

Sandie said...

So sorry to hear things have been so difficult Joy and hope that your personal life settles down so that you can get on with your life again. Glad you have a diagnosis and that the pain relief is working - it must be very difficult as I know how much you love gardening and walking. Wishing you better times ahead xx

Karen Butfield said...

so glad to see you posting again and things are starting to settle. Take care. xx

Fat Dormouse said...

Wishing you well. I have the beginnings of arthritis - knee, feet and hands - but nowhere near as bad as yours sounds. I hope your changes go a long way to helping to relieve the pain. You're in my thoughts and prayers.